ME,MYSELF AND I

2010-05-30T12:56:00.002+08:00

so see i'm still missing my late mom!!!like freaking alot!!just went to her grave last friday!!!oh gosh i'm missing her!!!and yupp i guess i wont be the only one missing a mom!!azfar mom pass away recently too!!gosh!!!so many people leaving us this year!!!but still life have to go on!!!

okay i'm like in a deep shit!!like for real!!idk wat to do!!!searching for a solution but so far havent find it!!!hmm!!

and i cant stand seating at home!!!i need to go out!!and yar!!i need a job!!!still a ong way to national slavery!!!hahas!!and it sucks!!so my life now is all for dance,band and lepak!!!and i'm missing zakky,fakky,wanny,jah,naddy,cinnamon meltz!!and all!!!i wanna lepak again!!!when zakk got car again!!!we saw trannies!!hahahas!!!but in all it was a great experience!!!

and lately i am a little clumsy!!!first i fell and sprain my ankle!!!then 4 days

talking about car..me,zakky and naddy met with accident!!!at johore!!!!it was a shock of our life!!and we have to take bus home from johore!!!it was scary!!plus after!!!i fell and hurt my knee!!gosh wat else after this my head!!hand!!and wat???haish!!oh yar hand!!!yes!!my wrist!!it hurts!!!

thats all

loves suffy!!

2010-05-09T10:20:00.002+08:00

i have tolerate it for so long and i just cant stand it anymore!!!

okay your are my grandmother but it doesnt i have to do everything you ask me to!!its like you are making use of me!aku dah tak leh angkat!!

i've been trying to be a very good grandson eversince my mom pass away!!but i feel like u are making use of me!!!just like how u did to my mom!!and now i really noe how mummy feels!!!i too will be danm tired and sick of you!!you wanna act like one queen and treat us like a damn slave!!ian go to sheng shiong,ian go to kedai mama,ian go kedai,ian go buy makan!!!like every single day!!and if you think u give me my allowence,pls lah that is my dads money!!!every single day must go market!!and its pissing me off!!!

i dun see the purpose of going to the market everyday!!and they way u ask me to so kurang ajar!!!call yourself an orang tue but you are so biadap!!you want me to go wait till i wake up arh!!not by constant nudging!!bingit!!oh gosh!!wait till i have a stable job and start ns!!i think my life will be much more easier!!!not seeing you most of the days!!and also not seeing all the irritating people at home!!!yes everyone!!!

MY FAMILY IS A FUCK UP FAMILY!!WHO ONLY THINK ABOUT THEMSELVES AND NOT OTHERS!!!AND THEY REALLY SUCK COZ THEY ACT LIKE THEY ARE ALL GOOD PEOPLE BUT THE TRUTH ARE THEY ARE ALL DECIVING BITCHES WITH A HEAD OF A PIG AND THEY DUN REALLY CARE HOW YOU FEEL,AS LONG AS THEY FEEL GOOD!!SO I REALLY WANT ALL OF YOU TO FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE!!!COZ HAVING YOU ALL AROUND IS JUST A FUCKING CHORE FOR ME!!

2010-05-05T14:06:00.004+08:00

GOSH!!!i have not been sleeping enough!!

every night after dance,i will be very hyper!!so i cant sleep at night!!when finally i get to sleep arh 6++in the morning!!my grandma will wake me up at around 9++ to help her cook!!!WTF!!i mean i need my effing sleep!!so tired nowadays!!and its killing me!!

have yet to find a job to keep me away from home,and it really sucks!!and i hate people trying to be like my mom!!in a bad way asking me to do everything!!

WELL YOU ALL ARE NOT MY MOM!!STOP BOSSING ME AROUND!!!COZ I'LL ONLY DO WAT MY MOM ASK TO DO SINCERELY!!BUT I'LL DO WAT YOU PEOPLE WANT ME TO DO WITHOUT ANY SINCERE THOUGHT!!OMG!!!

so today i have dance,and so gonna enjoy myself and forget about the painful mess at home!!URGH!!

And and i miss FarahL,indra,sue,izzat,joe and many more peeps from ite!!gosh!!

okay got to get going!!getting ready for dance!!haha!!

2010-05-03T11:29:00.003+08:00

meet the new korean hotsuff!!

isnt he a pretty one!!

So here it goes!!now i'm gonna update my blod regularly after so long of not blogging!!

actually wanted to chnage skin and tagboared but to lazy!!hahas

many things happen last few months!!

~my mom pass away!!gosh still coping!!

~X-qusite was form!!

~grad from ite!!

~didnt make it to poly!!

~waiting for ns!!

~BOWEN MILITARY BAND GOT GWH FOR SYF 2010!!!

so somethings to share!!

i really miss my scmates,schoolmates,classmates!!gosh it is killing me!!

Need to find job real soon!!surviving on $200 per month!!

plus my back hurt to the max!!farahL says overdance!!which i think so!!

i wanna get my bike lisence once i have money!!*dream on!!

2010-01-11T16:46:00.003+08:00

Hah a great 3 days of chalet!!!and i really enjoy it!!!

First day:
IT was the DND,though not many turn up like wat i expect but it turn out well!!!had fun performing with rembuction and also the coc dance member!!!hahas since when coc got dance also i dunno!!!hahas...the food was great!!!the performance was superb!!!sue and hussien was superb too!!!

had fun at nite with sc mates playing uno!!!hahas till late!!!then talk about life...so cool!!!me and dhurgaes and me slept the latest!!!hahas..couldnt sleep and bored!!!and INDRA wake up in the middle of the nite looking for food!!!haha...Funny seh!!!not forgetting how scary it is when haridz woke up in the middle of the nite to pee!!!hahas!!he looks possesed..haha..end of day 1!!!

Second day:
BBQ day!!!woke up late!!!and bla3 then go swimming!!!fun!!!wait for food and stuff and start bbqing!!!hahas!!!but the charcoal sucks so bought new charcoal!!!then it start!!!hahasnice food and chatting!!!hehehe...played turth or dare!!And it rocks!!!hahas..IMRAN KISS ME ON THE CHEEK!!!!HAHAHAS..NOT TO FORGET DERRICK TOO!!!hahas..hahas..SATU2 PERANGAI GEMOK!!!

Third day:
woke up early!!!food prepareed by angel and mama hs!!!hahas!!nice!!!waited for everyone then go swimming!!!hahas!!!then went back to chalet to eat!!!abg koyak came with my prosperity burger!!!!nice!!!bathe...straighten my hair and pack up to go hm!!!hahas..waited for shuttle bus and off to home!!!

2010-01-05T23:06:00.002+08:00

So jan intake orientation was really sucky!!!i got no duty!!!though i had fun with farhan bitching and slutting!!!hahas!!!i like hot guys!!!hahas

after that got meeting!!!ezy trash everythibg out!!!i find it good!!!GO EZY!!!

had dinner with farahd aka my darling,ind,dayaah,mama,saiful and haridz!!!hahas...off to home!!!

today had sch!!!till 5!!!went to RP for dance pract!!!and walk ard causeway pt!!!with rihin,amm and farahd!!!eat ljs!!!bitch ard!!!melatah ard!!!saw frigging hot guys!!!urgh!!!...

klah i wanna sleep!!!sch tmr!!!

2010-01-03T23:23:00.002+08:00

After so long and like finally i'm updating my blog!!!sch starts tmr and i will have to skip sch coz i got medical check up!!!and miss some part of the orientation!!!this year the orientation is totally different!!!hahas!!!herman is in charge!!!so must over the top and vavava voom!!!hahas

this hols is the most fun hols i ever had!!!spent most of my time with zakky,wanny and fakky!!!sleep over at zakky place!!!it was cool!!!i love you all!!!zakky,wanny and fakky!!!i also went to the sundown festival!!!i saw T-max,ft island,mario,lee ji su,brown eyed girls....the were so orgaisming!!!!i love korean!!!!not to forget the bbq session at pasir ris with c.o.c and the horrifying event at downtown east toilet!!!URGH!!!but most of all!!!i get to spent my time with BOWEN MILITARY BAND!!!we went to kl for a band comp!!!KLWMBC 09!!!up against extremely good bands!!!and got a SILVER with 1.1 points away for gold!!!the best thing is!!!i was in the fromation!!!its like a dream come true!!!:)

not to forget the dance practice with rembuction!!!it was superb!!!hahas...met new cool people and it was fun!!!haha!!!so that is all i have for today!!!school starting!!!more updating!!!hahas~stay tune for upcoming updates!!!:)

2009-11-22T15:00:00.002+08:00

wat is the meaning of love??if it is only one sided and full of negative intention??
i feel used and played!!and i am regreting all of the moment we had!!!sometimes i wonder why i'm like this!!i really regret doin all this and i think the only way is to go back to HIS way!!!maybe this is the best thing to do and to seek forgiveness from HIM!!

2009-11-05T11:26:00.003+08:00

Friendship?Will it last for eternity??

For now i have doubt in it!!Well i've already apologise..all i can do noe is to wait for her forgiveness!!!I am truely very sorry and if you think its all some excuses that i made up!!then i think your dun really noe me as well as you think!!so i'll play the way you want!!and if this is what you want and that our friendship isnt as lasting as u think the i've nothing to say!!All i noe is that i've never forget abt you!!even if i dun contact u,i still visit ur blog for updates on you,i went to your facebook acct to check on you!!!and if this is wat you want!!so be it!!!i'll wait for the day that you truly need me!!and dun worry i'll still be here waiting to console and will always stand by you!!

i miss asss!!!

~sufian~

2009-11-04T13:39:00.002+08:00

Siti Noorhasanah bte Juwahir..I am really sorry for bastard-ing you on the halloween party!!!i am really sorry and i noe u are really dissapointed with me and i will do everything to make it up to you!!!please forgive me!!!

2009-11-03T21:00:00.002+08:00

Okay here i go!!!

just incase you people dun noe!!my mummy leg was amputated!!from 2 plam below knee!!!i guess it make her disable!!

See okay i seems happy and okay in sch but really! My soul is crying!!! I really miss going out with my mummy!!!i miss cooking with her!!i miss all those things that we do together!! but for her i have to show a strong and happy look!! i noe deep down she is crying too!!but i also noe that my mummy is a very strong women and wat happen to her wont make her surrender to faith!!!i noe she will work hard to overcome every thing!!

now i realise that i have been dancing more than i usually do!!coz it makes me forget all my worries and also makes me happy!!! i dun noe how much longer will dance make me calm and forget everything but for now its the best solution i have!!!I SERIOUSLY MISS MY MUMMY TO THE CORE!!!I MISS SLEEPING BESIDE HER!!!I MISS THE SCOLDING FROM HER!!!I MISS KISSING HER GOOD NITE!!!I MISS KISSING HER BEFORE GOING TO SCHOOL!!!I HOPE SHE GET OUT OF THE HOSPITAL AND COME LIVE WITH US AT HOME SOON!!!

back to my usual life in sch!!i'm gonna step down from sc soon!!!i'm a little sad but also happy to noe my new successor with do a good job!!!and to all the 19 batch excos and member all the best in continuing the success of sc!!!

2009-10-15T23:58:00.002+08:00

Alrigth!long time since this blog is update..Well i have been busy with friends,sch,student council and that person!!but well its over already!!end of it baby!!it just couldn't work!!!

okay my open house is cancel!!!Y??coz my mom is hospitalize and i am very down right now!!diabetes is a very dangerous illness!!!hmm!!!and please people if you have diabetes!!!dun take any wound lightly!!!:)actually i dun really noe wat to expect!!!hmm i really very worried and scared actually!!!ARH!!!!
MUMMY I LOVE YOU!!!and PLEASE BE SAFE AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF

2009-10-01T00:22:00.000+08:00

Baby!!!I nak kasut baru!!!
BOLEH??
PLS!!

2009-09-30T23:35:00.004+08:00

Hey there!!So the excos had a raya outing last monday and hell we had fun!!Cam whoring and posing everywhere!!Two cars!!Bas and Esah drove!!!went to izzat,sue,esah,ak,saiful,doda,bas,mine,jo hs...had fun!!!

OMG saiful cats are so cute!!!there is 1 that is super big!!!and two pursian cat!!!1 of it is sufi!!hahas...so cute!!!there is this part when the cat run out!!and both doda and ind scream!!!hahas super funny!!!ind even jump up the chair!!!hahas

Cut it short!!!we had karaoke session at bas house!!and poor bas have to send us back so i accompanied to bukit batok then bukit panjang!!then he send me!!!bas is super cute when he is sleepy!!!hahas:)

2009-09-26T23:47:00.002+08:00

Friday was alot of fun!!!went for dance lesson!!!3 in a row!!!
so i went to sch with legging and short!!!with t-shirt!!!
coz janet class need to strecth!!!and if i wear short!!!it's uncomfortable...
people look at me like some kinda freak but idc!!!
FISH YOU PEOPLE...

met pam in the bus and off to sch!!
when i reach sch!!!
EMY was like saying wats wrong with me???
fish him lah!!!

hip hop was fun!!!
so was janet class!!!
and arvin class was extremely superb!!!i catch up so fast!!!
Proud of maself!!!

went home and sleep!!!after dance!!!
woke up ard 7 to go jalan rayer!!!
haahaa...1 hs oni!!!but okay lah!!!

that all!!!
i sayang u tau!!!

~sufizan~

2009-09-25T01:01:00.003+08:00

Had a gd and nice chat with tikhun...

he is so supportive and fun!!!

misses those sec sch day with him!!!

thanks tikhun....

hey!!!i had a blast on wednesday!!!:)
oh yar i saw predip and hug him!!!
MISSES HIM TO THE CORE!!!

So thursday was hell lots of fun!!!Meet up with the excos and and had meeting!!!and off to vivo and slack!!!we played para2 and pool!!fun!!!slack at buger king and have fun!!!

Okay lets see!!
I really wanna quit gv!!!
Imagine requesting for 5 days of work but only get a day!!!aRh
4 bad things happen to me!!

1st is the stupid schedule!!!
2nd my phone spoil...did recieve any msg or call for hrs!!!but the suddenly got the calleralert!!
abish kene marah!!!
3rd my mp3 give up on me!!!!
4th Lizard fell on me!!!EWW

so tmr i'm having dance!!!3 lesson in a day!!!
1st hip hop
2nd janet class(jazz)
3rd bollywood!!!
so need to wake up early and go to sch!!!arh!!!
check!!!rayer collection $201
still not enuf!!!pay this month...$150!!!
still not enuf!!!cant survive!!!haha!!!

okay i'm sorry!!!
not intentionally!!!
hp rosak kan!!!
dun merajuk okay???

LOVES

~sufizan~

2009-09-22T00:40:00.002+08:00

Okay!!Anyway reality check i'm 19 already!!!Which means i'm gonna get lesser collection money damn it!!!and next year i'll be 20!!!!The big 20!!!tsk!!!!i'm so gonna have to find better job!!!with more pay...aiya!!!COLLECTION CHECK LESS THE $200!!!Hating getting older rite now!!!!:)

2009-09-21T12:55:00.002+08:00

SLACKING AT NANA HOUSE LAST YEAR!!!HMM MEMORIES!!!

2009-09-21T00:24:00.002+08:00

OKAY!!!Lets see wat did i do!!!yar...i didnt go for sembahyang coz!!!uzur!!!lols no lah i slept late and just couldnt wake up!!!alah miss the pahale again...Anyway the first guest came at ard 10...and by then all the stuff have been prepared...yay!!!and so i go bath and wear my old clothes coz we will be leavin at ard 2....mean time we do the regular things seek forgiveness and stuff...then i help my kakak with her hair!!!damn!!!blow dryin her hair!!!after that help her with make-up!!!HAHAS loike...she is like so clueless...superly sleng!!!hahas

then get ready and off t jurong to visit my father side....it was sad coz there were no grandfather..instead of seeking forgiveness from 2 person it was 1!!!but still life have to go on!!!!after that of to my late great grandma hs!!!again another weird thing coz she isnt there anymore!!!hmm...and yar i miss my mr hotstuff!!!shit!!!Aunty shida and fam came...but luckily we reach on time to see mr hotstuff!!!he is super tall and extreamly cute!!!btw he is gointo ns soon!!!guess he will be abang body soon!!!i loike!!!(smiling)!!!

CHECK COLLECTION IS ONLY $150 now!!!!hmmm

2009-09-20T14:01:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

TO ALL MY MUSLIM FRIENDS,MY FAMILY AND EVERYONE WHO KNOWS ME!!!

2009-09-17T23:36:00.002+08:00

Okay so i went to work today and it was so fun!!!

Eventhough i only got 2 days out of my 5 days request but still should be lucky to get a day!!hahas..And yar there were this 2 new guy!!!zul and islam!!!and i have o say islam is superbly cute!!!hahas...and zul was okay lah!!!we breakfast together!!!and yar the hand made noodle was nice!!!And man always the same always disturb me....

had alot of free time today!!!over-staffing??well tmr i'll be on overtime!!finish at 3++hahas...and saturday i'll have to help in the kitchen to prepare food for rayer!!!hmm...Yar this rayer will be a little boring so i decide to work more to have more money for my superb nike air shoe!!!orange colour!!!:)

Okay feeling sleepy...of to bed now!!:)

2009-09-16T23:21:00.002+08:00

Okay!!so it like a few more days to rayer and the mood is still not there yet..slept late ystd and sleep till 5 today!!!wake up and have to wash the chicken...hahas

Today's menu is chicken rice!!okaylah not bad!!hmm then have to dry fry the grated coconut after breakfast!!!it takes hrs to finish frying!!!hahas

well i'm working tomorrow and not sure i can make it to the exco interview!!!but well!!!hahas
damn shagg and wanna sleep early today that is abt all!!!:)

2009-09-15T23:50:00.003+08:00

So i just did a dopest thing just now!! my sister and i were totally bored and we decided on what to wear for rayer and this idea of me using the normal top and a legging for rayer appear and so i try it on and omg i look superb in it..it gives me a tot of really using it for rayer!!!but well since my family dont noe tht i'm gay!!!i guess i will have to pass on it..hmm

Its hard living a double life coz i have to be a great pretender to actually live my current life..See my family are those conservative family..they dun allow other gender fren in the room unless they noe them already,they dun allow clubbing,dun allow so many different kinda shit!!!like they dun fancy me dancing the way i usually do..those feminine moves!!!but the truth is i'm gay!!!Outside,i dun really care wat people think of me!!!i lead my life alone...i couldnt be bothered by all the negative comment!!!thank god i have plenty of frenz who understand me and accept me!!!they noe who they are...its not like i did not try to be straight but i just cant!!!why do i have to pretend o like girls i i really dun have any feeling for them???

though i'm gay i have never even bee able to show people who i am...i really envy the voguelicious coz they dare to show people who they are...like wear all the pretty clothes,shoes,make up...they are such a doll!!!i really wish to go out and wear those legging!!!hot pants!!!beautiful shoes!!!nut i'm just not that daring to use and beside that i'll get whack by my parents!!!GOSH its so hard being me!!!

2009-09-15T00:50:00.002+08:00

So check this out.. went out to geylang with zakk,fakky,nana,shilla,jajo and hanafi..It has been a long time since we met and so it was fun catching up with each other..And yar hanafi advice me to declare gay for ns as he says that it will be better for me..not quiet sure but i'll consider..

Had fun with them...lepak at hp for a while..sadly ahmad couldnt join us...but still enjoy myself..

And yar i am somewhat confuse!! Is there such thing as bisexual???

okay lets see..We are often given 2 for choice.Its either this or that..
eg
1.black or white
2.silver or gold
3.yes or no
4.left or right
5.up or down

so i guess you people get what i'm trying to say!!!
What is the possibility of someone liking both gender..
you can only be straight or gay(liking same gender)
Are people really confuse??like seriously you will either like a gurl or a guy!!!
You cant have both..
Come on made up ur mind on which gender you want to have sex with???
this is not like hannah montana-you get the best of both world!!!URGH

SO ALL YOU CONFUSE PEOPLE MADE UP UR MIND!!!!

2009-09-13T01:28:00.003+08:00

Hey people friday was a wonderful day!!!i had dance lesson with janet in the afternoon..we learnt jazz movement...cool...before that it was ard 1hr of stretching...and my body is in deep pain..let see after that was chapter meeting...i chair it with saiful and hopefully every one understood me...coz i'm a little shagg that day...due to the previous nite didnt sleep at all...

after chapter was zoom ramadhan...me partner up with doda as game master...it was superbly hilarious...and me and doda cam-whore..hahas..Met a lot of familiar people...There was farhana(shilla fren),there was ayul,aidil and smurf...also danny....old fren...hehe..

had alot of fun poking saiful during the waiting period of breakfast and in the train.....hahas..

thats all...

And yar to people involve,monday 14 sept at 5 pm at hp...:)

2009-09-11T00:10:00.003+08:00

Well it seem like i have been ages since i post anything! Simple, it is just because i have been studying for my exams days nights! And finally it done!! YAYNESS! i find the papers manageable. I just hope i did well to boost my freaking GPA..

Yesterday was alot of fun going to geylang with Bas,B.P,Shy,Ind and Durgaes. Seriously its my first time going to the bazaar since its open..HAHAS..There ss nothing much i should say about the bazaar.When surveying for ZOOM RAMADHAN.. And i should warn everyone!!! BAS IS A CRAZY DRIVER...SUPER SCARY!!!!hahas

So just after breakfast!! i suddenly have this problems breathing..i guess it was because of jogging!!!hmm...Still having it so tired sia...Solution if tmr I'm okay I'll go for dance,chapter and ZOOM....but if not...NO DANCE and CHAPTER...

AND YAR!!! GOODBYE LOVELY HAIR...GONNA HAVE HAIRCUT SOON...:)

2009-08-25T10:39:00.002+08:00

Knowing that I'm attracted to you is my biggest fear.
It makes me feel awkward being around you,
but the awkwardness makes me want to be around you.

The thing that makes me like you is your silliness.
It never fails to keep me smiling.
Even at my weakest point,you give me hope to carry on.

Even when you are disturbing me or irritates me,
I'm not angry because I'm enjoying it actually.
It's hard to say out my feeling as it would only destroy a friendship.

2009-08-21T21:51:00.003+08:00

Okay its friday and sc installation is over!!!

YAY

and tmr will be the first day of fasting month!!

this means i cant do any sin..

includes melatah!!!

coz all the funny and vulgar words will come out!!!

HAISH

Exams is ard the coner and i havent even touch the book

omg!!

SUFIAN if you are gonna increase your gpa,

you have to start now!!!!

though its late but its not to late!!!

See..i feel like quiting my job,

yar its fun and i earn money,

but the people there are turning into bossy freak.

i mean the senior keep asking the new staff to do everything..

except for kak juwita,abg man...

if i were to quit my job,

i will surely miss BAZA,SITI,KAK JUWITA & ABG MAN

they rocks i tell you..

not to forget saling,irene,patrik and meg(who have gone back to Philippine)

Am still thinking of really to quit or not!!
anyway good job to shikin and fathiah on the evm video!!

great job to zia for the ppt slides...now left the report!!my job!!!

hahas

AND YAR EVERYONE MISSES PAPAHOUSE

INDRA!!

WHEN ARE YOU COMING HOME???

that all

till then

2009-08-21T21:22:00.003+08:00

Life is full of emotion,

sometimes you are happy,

and sometimes you are sad,

at times you are angry,

and most of the time you just feel glad..

But to me life is more like a roller coaster,

sometimes you are up,

and sometimes you are down,

you feel so stress when you are at the top,

and you feel so calm when you are down..

Whatever the emotion might be,

we still have to live life to the fullest

as setbacks are just a minor thing in life,

no one is ever able to escape it!!

so why make it something to hold you down??

when you can actually use it to better yourself..

2009-08-17T22:11:00.003+08:00

After so long of not posting here i go! I have been busy lately due to my event module and also work. Beside my lappy is always being use by other people. Well my event is done and hell it was so last minute but i guess we pull it of. Thanks to the chionger naf,zia,sikin,fath,ind and jansher.

Okay i was totally pissed with my mom! And now i'm giving her the silent treatment! Hmm guess i wont be talking to her for a while. i'm greatly hurt by her! Well we will see wat happen next! If you are wondering why??? Don't bother i won't write it!!! Hahas..

Tmr is the sc bazzar and i hope everything will go smoothly! This friday is the sc installation so excited for it. It means that my time as a student councillor is coming to an end! Though i will miss being one but i guess i need this.

YAR MY BELOVED BESTFRIEND INDRA LEFT FOR MONGOL LAST FRIDAY!!!HOPE YOU ARE HAVING A GREAT FUN DANCING THERE!!!HEHE

And rembuction actually perform for my event!!! It is so cool and they are fun people to hang ard with!!! I loike...:)

Okay i didn't go to work again today coz of sc and also i'm suppose to injured my leg!!! Going to polyclinic tmr to take mc and also hopefully i get the 1 week no physical activities leave...hehe.. I am so tired of working and feel like quitting but i have to find money to pay all my debts!!! God if only i rich!!! I wont encounter any of this problems!!!ARH!!!

2009-08-09T01:13:00.002+08:00

Why is looks always the thing someone look for???

Does looks last forever???I don't think so!!!

Hey people have you guys ever heard of inner beauty???

Maybe this is what all you people have to look for!!!Because looks is just a mask!!!Doesn't mean that good looking people are perfect...hmm...I am sick of people looking for looks!!!Wake up lah eh!!What is there to good look???Do u mean people who are normal looking and ugly do not need to be love and cared for???Face the fact that looks will fade when you grow old!!!But what inside will last forever!!!ARH!!!!

2009-08-07T22:08:00.003+08:00

Kranky!!! well that is wat i have been called this few days!!!am i really kranky???hmm..

okay long time did not update hahas...busy with sch arh and plus my lappy is now a public laptop!!!you noe wat i mean..dun noe well let me explain....it means my laptop have been busy working for other people...for idk wat!!!but as long as yaian(my lappy) is alright i okay with it...and also my internet connection some thing wrong!!!omg there is like 3 lappy in this house and why use mine???oh forgot the other 2 spoil????why???idk...

okay wat should i talk about????oh okay this year birthday celebration is sad!!!loner!!!lah other people all busy wat with their stuff....but its okay...gotta learn to be a loner!!!!because you only have yourself in the end...that is wat i learnt!!!and you can't have evertything that you want!!!hahas...

our event module finally getting somewhere...we have all the stuff but only looking for better venue!!!hmm....anyone wanna sponsor venue???pls????

was late for work ystd thought i start @ 6 but actually 4...hahas...was scolded...hmmm...

i feel that i dun have place to share my problems,wat i really feel,wat i really really feel...it is so frustrating and so ARH!!!!anyway gonna enjoy my hols!!!sunday and monday working!!!!double pay!!!yeah!!!gotta save money to buy new phone!!!and yar!!!talking bout money,my last pay was $526...200 for outstanding bill,100 for mom,50 for concession,and i'm left with 20 now and i didn't spend on myself...yar i bought syrup,food and idk wat...but i noe i didn't enjoy a single cent of my pay!!!ARH!!!!super frustrated

Okay wat i'm gonna say maybe people have heard before and stuff but still i wanna say again...

I FIND MY LIFE SO PATHETIC RIGHT NOW!!!!MONEY NOT ENOUGH!!!!AND IT KILLS ME TO SEE PEOPLE TO HAVE MORE STUFF THEN ME...OMG I USE TO HAVE EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING I WANTED AND WHERE IS ALL THAT!!!I FEEL SO CHEAPO EVERYTIME!!!SHOPPING AT PENINSULAR!!!SHOPPING AT BUGIS ALL THE TIME!!!!I WAT TO FEEL WAT ITS LIKE TO HAVE TOPMAN SHIRT!!!TO OWN A PAIR OF NIKE HIGH CUT!!!TO HAVE LACOSTE STUFF...A SIMPLE RIPCURL OR BILLABONG ORIGINAL STUFF!!!NICE BAG INSTEAD THOSE OLD BAG I'M USING!!!!IF ONLY MONEY GROW ON TREES!!!!MY PHONE SUPER CONDEMN....I NEED NEW ONE....EASY SAID WATEVER I WANTED I COULDN'T HAVE IT!!!I COULDN'T EVEN HAVE FRIEND BY ME WHEN I NEED THEM...HMMM....I NOE THERE ARE JUST A PHONE CALL AWAY BUT???IT'S NOT THE SAME LIKE BEING HERE!!!WHERE GOES ALL THE OKAY ATLEAST MEET UP ONCE A WEEK????OMG FAKKY U SURE FEEL WAT I FELT!!!!BUT AS I SAY AT THE TOP!!!!YOU ONLY HAVE YOURSELF IN THE END!!!HAISH!!!!

I HATE THIS PART RIGHT HERE!!!

NAN GWAEN CHAN AH!!!

I DUN CARE EH EH EH EH EH

2009-08-03T15:14:00.002+08:00

ATTENTION:

We have extended the submission date for the templates to Tuesday, 21st july 2009.
This is to accomodate those participants who have been affected by the H1N1 quarantine order.
Finalists will be contacted via SMS, latest by 24th July.
Changes to the prizes have also bEEn made.

First Prize: $200
Second Prize: $150
Third Prize: $100

DATE:14 AUGUST 2009

The venue has yet to be confirmed.

2009-07-23T12:12:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Thanks to everyone who wishes me!!!i lup you guys alot!!!

Me 19???wow!!!shocking!!!well waiting for me to reach 20!!!hahas!!!my wish is for me to be able to go poly!!!hehe

2009-07-19T15:35:00.002+08:00

I just wanna say that i am so freaking tired!!!fri and sat was working from 7.50pm to 4.20 am!!!hmm...super tired!!!so no energy to post actually!!!and i'm so saving up for a new phone!!!my stupid phone condemn already!!!idiots!!!and my dad had an accident!!!the car is badly damage!!!my bro got into accident also!!!he got a little injured!!!but they are save!!!the problems now is money!!!for repairing of the car!!!hopefully insurance can help!!!

i realise that this few day i'm like hoping so much!!!hope my event gonna be okay!!!studies!!!hmm!!!keep on hoping!!!and i really hope to see my bffs!!!like freaking miss them to the max!!!hahas!!!lets talk about my life now!!!well everything use to bring joy to me!!!but not anymore!!!all that brings joy to me now is music and dancing!!!and a few of concern friends!!!that's all!!!family???hmm!!!lets not talk!!!

i really hope life is like fairytale!!!!always end with happy ending!!!wouldn't it be nice!!!but i have to face reality!!!there is no such thing as happy ending!!!lols!!!in sch!!!everyone changing!!!we use to be all close!!!but now it's like a huge gap between us!!!and for me i hardly have time for me!!!so my social life is fading away!!!!i am so tired that my mind is blank right now!!!so I'll try to post again soon!!!toodles!!!!

2009-07-14T10:22:00.002+08:00

STRESS IS A WAY OF LIFE,YET ONE COULD END THEIR LIVE COZ OF STRESS!!!

Okay i'll start my post now!!! i dun really noe wat's wrong with me!!! i think i'm going crazy!!! somethimes i'm happy and sometimes i'm sad!!! sometimes i'm loud and sometimes i i prefers to be silent..is stress wat cause this mental breakdown!!!hahas!!!omg i'm turning into daniel!!!arh!!!freak!!!omg i really think i need to hang out!!!!like real soon!!!NANA!!!SHILLA!!!AHMAD!!!FAKKY!!!FIZAH!!!I NEED YOU GUYS!!!ARH!!!SO DAMN MISSING YOU GUYS!!!I'VE GOT ALOT TO SHARE AND ALOT TO HEAR!!!LIFE IS SUCH BOREDOM WITHOUT YOU GUYS!!!

OKAY!!! i will end here!!:)

2009-07-12T17:44:00.002+08:00

I FELL SO ANNOYED AND IRRITATED EASILY THESE DAYS!!!REASONS???I DUN EVEN NOE WHY!!!OKAY LETS SEE...THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD!!!FIRST IS SCH!!!THEN EVENTS!!!THEN SC!!!THEN HOME!!!THEN ARH!!!ITS NEVER ENDING!!!I SO WISH FOR A WEEK BREAK TO HAWAII!!!IT WILL BE SO RELAXING AND SO FUN!!!WITH HOT SENERY AND VIEWS!!!HMMM!!!!

2009-07-07T14:17:00.002+08:00

Okay!!!So ystd i was working till 1.10am!!and it is super tiring!!!have to carry bench!!!4 of it!!and there was this 2 guys that brought beer into the cinema!!!and was making alot of noise in the cinema!!!fish and they are malay arh!!!Amsterdam!!!wat the hell 11.6% only also can get super drunk!!!and i reach home ard 2 and i couldnt sleep so i watch mtv made and this emo gurl wanna be made into a cheerleader!!!cool!!!and guess wat she made it into the team!!!cool rite!!!i wanna be made too!!!into a dancer!!!haha!!

Okay btw just now indra pop a question to me!!!!"have you ever be serious in life??!!"and i am lost to his question!!!do people see me as someone who is playful and can never be serious???or am i always feeling too happy that it struct people that i cant be serious???or am i really streotype as a not serious person???hmm i wonder!!!

2009-07-07T11:30:00.002+08:00

HEY!!!Muhammad Sufian Bin Rahim is coming to his senses soon!!!hahas!!!okay!!!I guess all this while i've been doing the WRONG stuff!!!But now i think its time to be the real me!!!Or is what i've done is the real me???LOST!!!!CONFUSE!!!Yar i think i'm confuse!!!i guess i need time to really find the true me and chill for a moment!!!hahas!!!

So i guess I WANT A GIRLFRIEND!!!!!YEAH!!!!!!!!

Application is open!!!hahas!!!
msg me or call me!!!
email or add me at msn!!!<3

Yeah and to all the jerks out there!!!get a life!!!stop hurting girls and stop using them!!!

2009-07-04T18:38:00.004+08:00

Reply to Atikay:Its okay dear!!!there will be other opportunity!!!:)and i miss ak too.

SHOUTOUTS

I MISS MY DEAR CG!!!ALL OF THEM!!!

I MISS THE BOWEN BAND ALUMNI!!!LONG TIME SINCE WE SEE EACH OTHER!!!HOW ABOUT MEETING???

I MISS MY 3 BFFS!!!!SHILLA,AHMAD AND HASANAH...WELL THER ARE IN THE @9 TOO...LOLS

I MISS MUHAMMAD FAKHRIN AND HAFIZAH...SCH REOPENING SO WILL GET TO SEE HER AND AHMAD!!!YAY!!!

Okay!!!i spoilt my earpiece!!!so i have to get a new one!!!maybe an earphone!!!i finally get assigned a task for OA project!!!yeah!!!and i'm excited for sch!!!and worried for my event!!!hope people will help us!!!and work!!!i only get schedule on monday and so i will have to put in schedule more nxt week!!!but not on wed thurs and sun!!!i got dance!!!and i think i am gonna flung my evm!!!due to the event cancellation and all the last minute changes!!!ARH!!!!

I AM PISSED AGAIN!!!ARH!!!IDIOT!!!AGAIN AND AGAIN DOING THIS STUPID STUFF TO ME!!!BINGIT WAT MORE YOU WANT!!!!I'VE DECIDED I AM GONNA DO WHAT I SHOULD HAVE DONE LONG TIME AGO!!!GOODBYE!!!!!

hmm wat else i should blog about!!!yar i'm left with coins!!!i am so broke!!!haish!!!i need money!!!!ARH!!!shit damn it!!!i am getting lazy to work but i need the money!!!hmmi think my life is so tight!!!and cramp!!!see i got sch!!!work!!!dance!!!student council!!!bmb @9!!!i need a break from every thing!!!!i still got family responsibilities!!!friendship responsibilities!!!!ARH!!!

2009-07-02T20:26:00.003+08:00

Okay!!!today i went out to do project!!!and cibai!!!my evm venue have been cancel due to h1n1!!!and we have to find new venue and pa system!!!i am so stress up!!!for oa shikin will msg wat we have to do!!!and for tps we have to find the restaurant of the different food!!!hmm..i hope we can pull this thing off!!!

Okay i was only schedule for work on monday!!!wat the fish!!!like i was sick and didnt go to work and then i got 1 day for next week!!!sial lah!!!but well its more time to rest i guess!!!lols...

2009-07-01T23:39:00.002+08:00

TUESDAY NEWS!!!

Okay!!!wake up early...suprisingly coz the nite before i couldnt sleep!!!was so excited bout the sc outing!!!get ready and prepared everything!!!and of to ecp!!!met aisyah,ind ,shidah,saiful,yuzhen and jia mian at the busstop and of to mac....the rest was there!!!

okay then we went of to the beach and started our games!!!!it was hot,hip,cool and happening!!!hahas!!!we played the direction games!!!then touch rugby...then frisbee...then dog and bone!!!and we have fun!!!then food was nice!!!$2.50 for fried rice and chicken wing!!!very worth it!!!

Ard 3.30pm we started to rent the bicycle!!!!and yar4.15 we start the journey to changi village!!!woohoo!!!it was fun...but izzat bicycle chain keep on coming off!!!the we have to wait for an exchange!!!but then we decided to go on first...and so bas,ind,farah and izzat was left behind!!!!aisyah lead the team and of to changi village!!!!going was fun!!!but alot panchit in the middle!!!as the behind person me and doda encouraged them!!!

we reach changi ard almost 7!!!we ate and make a move ad 8!!!at changi there were many cats!!!and u noe wat some people are scared of cats!!!hahas...funny sia!!!okay i encounter many spooky problems otw back to ecp!!!and hmm!!!its scary!!!i dun wish to talk bout it!!!hahas!!and shida was with me half way through as she feels weak!!!so sara took over her!!!i felt calm with her coz we selawat!!!hahas...we also sing together and it was fun!!!there was this part where a dog was trying to get to our bicycle and she panic...hahas super cute!!!loLs we reach ecp before 10 yeah!!!

i so wanna do this again coz its super fun and bas did a great job!!!CONGRATULATION TO EVERYONE WHO MAKE THIS OUTING POSSIBLE!!!

2009-07-01T23:31:00.002+08:00

MONDAY NEWS!!!!

Okay!!!We have decided on the finalist for sc apr intake and we are all happy with it!!!after the meeting,we went to eat at pondok abang!!!all time favorite!!!hahas...had fun chatting!!!farah and izzat left first coz they have event thing to do!!!

Then after that ind and me went straight to our class bbq!!!hahas!!!it starts at 4!!!but when we reach there only nisa,dewi and chelsea were there!!!!soon after terrence group came then ms joei!!!the food came late and it was raining!!!!damn it!!!hahas...we started the bbq ard 8 and eat till 9++then ind and me went off coz the next day we have sc outing!!!

Okay that is everything about monday!!!lols

2009-06-28T11:21:00.002+08:00

FIRSTLY!!!!I HATE MY INTERNET CONNECTION!!!!!!FISH YOU!!!!ARH!!!Okay so i had fun working ystd!!!i pack nachos!!!the usual stuff!!!and there is this stupid botak guy!!!super irritating!!!the hall is not ready and he keep coming back despite joseph saying "you can only enter 5mins before the show!!!"fish sia that guy!!!!and there is this another guy!!!so what if you work at grand!!!idgaf!!!!complaint about the pictures!!!fish you lah sial!!!i stupid bunch of mat rep!!!err!!!!anyway reach hm ard 2am!!!hahas!!!

okay i guess i cant attend the class outing tmr!!!!i got work and nobody can cover me!!!shit!!!and i plan to get mc for tuesday as i got the sc bonding activities!!!hahas!!!so pray hard i can get the mc!!!hahas!!!and yar!!!ystd was my family day and i didnt go!!!!because i got work at 6pm and the night before i came home ard 2+am....so was freaking tired!!!hahas!!!!

okay today i have no plans!!!so i will stay at home and rest i really need to rest!!!!and yar we have yet to do our tourism project!!!fish arh!!!lols!!!Indra and nafiqah!!!faster come out with the planning!!!hehe!!!!!

and yar my grands have move to their new home!!!!at boon keng!!!arh idk!!!bt well lets see i get alot of space to at my house!!!its not a good thing but i'll survive!!!which there will be no food and stuff!!!hahas..and no easy money!!!damn!!!

i think i am so caught up with myself!!!!like this hols is like so busy for me!!!i have to study for the oa exam!!!then i have work!!!including student council!!!and i dun think i have any time to hang out and lepak!!!damn!!!i dun even have time for myself!!!!i have not been out for leisure!!!and i think i'm turning a workerholic!!!well i need money!!!!ARH!!!but well!!!and yar its sunday and the house is so quiet!!!so weird!!!normally it will be very noisY!!!hmm...

okay sorry if my post is like rojak!!!!hahas!!!coz i post to what comes to my mind first!!!hehe!!!

2009-06-25T21:25:00.002+08:00

YAIAN!!!COOL NICK!!!HAHAS

OKAY MANY THINGS HAPPEN SINCE THE LAST TIME I BLOG!!!FIRSTLY I'M BUSY WITH WORK!!!SECONDLY I'M BUSY WITH SC!!!AND LASTLY I'M PISS OFF WITH HIM!!!

WORK IS REALLY FUN!!!MET ALOT OF PEOPLE!!!!MAKE NEW FRENS!!!LEARNT HOW TO SPEAK PHILIPPINES!!!HAHAHS...LEARNT TO SPEAK MANDARIN!!!!LOLS..BTW I GOT MY FIRST PAY!!!wOOHOOO!!!!

SC!!!WELL WE ARE HAVING SC APR INTAKE INTERVIEW...IT WENT WELL SO FOR!!!THERE ARE SOME POTENTIAL ONE!!!HAHAS!!!OKAY!!!TMR IS THE LAST DAY AND YAR WE WILL HAVE TO FIGHT FOR OUR COMMITTEE MEMBERS!!!HAHAS!!!THANK GOD I'M OUT OF THAT!!!HAHAS!!!!

AND HIM!!!!ARH!!!STUPID FAGGOT!!!I HATE YOU!!!BUT THEN!!!WELL ITS FORGIVEN!!!SO!!!HAHAS!!!I LOVE U SYG!!!!HAHAHS!!!!NICE DAY OUT!!!:)

"IN A RELATIONSHIP NO 1 IS PERFECT!!!IT HOW U ACCEPT THE IMPERFECTION AND TURN IT INTO A POSITIVE OUTCOME"

2009-06-18T21:38:00.002+08:00

Days of not blogging!!!Why???my stupid lappy give problem!!!been busy!!!My holidays are pack!!!I have to struggle with sc,dance,band and work!!!Its very tiring!!!and yar work was fun!!!i met alot of new people AND THEY ARE VERY FRIENDLY!!!!!!hahas...wat can i say!!!

Oh yar i finally met predip just now!!!and i miss him so much!!!hahas!!!he was surpose to be schooling at ite clementi but he reject!!!stupid sia!!!now he is waiting for enlistment for ns!!!good luck!!!!

When sch reopens i will have exams and i havent study yet!!!!alot of chapter to study!!!!ARH!!!scream!!!!hahas...went to dance just now and i was freaking late!!!but still we pull it of!!!!and yar tmr is another dance day!!!

2009-06-11T12:05:00.002+08:00

OKAY!!!YESTERDAY WAS FUN!!!!I AM SO VERY HAPPY!!!DIDNT ATTEND CLASS BECAUSE I GOT DANCE!!!THEN AFTER SCH I WENT TO VIVO TO INTERVIEW FOR A JOB AT GOLDEN VILLAGE!!!!AND YEAH!!!!I GOT THE JOB!!!I NOE!!!I NOE THE PAY ISNT THAT MUCH $4 BUT WELL ATLEAST I GOT A JOB!!!!TODAY I WILL START MY FIRST DAY OF WORK WHICH IS ACTUALLY TRAINING...I AM SO VERY EXCITED!!!HAHAHS...SO GONNA HURRY HOME TO CHANGE AND TAKE MY BANK BOOK COZ I DIDNT BRING IT ALONG WITH ME!!!!WISH ME LUCK ON MY JOB AND HOPE THE PEOPLE THERE ARE FRIENDLY!!!HAHAS!!!!

AND YAR MY HOLIDAY SCHEDULE IS SO PACK!!!

I GUESS I WILL BE WORKING!!!!
HAVING SC EVENTS!!!!
HAVING DANCE!!!!
DOING PROJECTS AND ALOT OF OTHER STUFF!!!

2009-06-09T10:43:00.002+08:00

I went to watch monster vs alien with hafizah yesterday!!!!and i was fun...and like always we smuggle food in!!!hahas...and she got lock out from hm again!!!cibai sak her fam!!!like really!!!somemore she's a gurl seh!!!i'm so piss of for her!!!and yar ysterday i fell and it hurt!!!my whole left leg hurt!!!!i hate it!!!!

Okay RANDOM ALERT!!!!

Is there such thing as loving for his/her money????

I'm really confuse!!!i've been thinking and its bothering me!!!am i one of that or is he giving to get something in return???showering me wit money when i really need it!!!paying up my bill!!!sending me home!!!haish!!!confuse!!!all my frenz say that you want something out of it but i noe you are not that kinda guy!!!arh!!!maybe its my imagination!!!but well wat i noe i still love you lah bonch!!!!hahas...

2009-06-08T14:19:00.002+08:00

SATURDAY!!!06/06/09

OKAY WENT TO ST JAMES AGAIN!!!POWER HS!!!AND DAMN...IT SO FREAKING PACK!!!I CANT EVEN DANCE FREELY!!!BUT WELL WEH AD FUN DRINKING,SMOKING AND DANCING!!!!HAHAHS...WAT SHALL I SAY I'M A PARTY ANIMAL!!!LOLS...AND I SAW ADAM!!!I SO MISS HIM LAH!!!AND YAR HE GAVE US A FREE JUG OF COKE!!!YES!!!!AND YAR THE SONGS WAS SO NICE!!!PCD SONG CAME OUT!!!I LOVE PCD!!!HAHAHS

SUNDAY07/06/09

WE TOOK THE FIRST TRAIN HOME!!!AND YAR SLEEP TILL 3PM ON SUNDAY AND WENT TO DANCE REHEARSAL AND PERFORM AT 7++AND I ALMOST FELL BUT WELL SUFFY DID HIS BEST!!!TATS ALL LAH TATAS!!!

2009-06-08T14:13:00.002+08:00

FRIDAY!!!05/06/09

WENT OUT WITH MUMMY ZURA AND AISYAH!!!I SO MISS AZURA BEING IN SCH...BUT WELL SHE IS LIVING A STRESSFUL LIVE IN RP!!!HAHAS..WENT TO EAT PIZZA HUT!!!AND THERE WAS THIS WAITER AGUNG!!!SUPER CUTE..WE GUESS HE IA A BRUNEIAN!!!HAHAS...THEN SLACK AT ESPLANADE STAGE!!!I LOIKE...WE CATCH UP WITH LIVE AND ALL...

THEN MET AZRUN AND HMM TATS ALL THAT WE DID!!!CANT WAIT FOR NEXT OUTING WITH MUMMY ZURA AND AISYAH AND ALL THE ANAK2....

2009-06-02T09:29:00.003+08:00

PCD IS COMING TO SINGAPORE AND ME...THIER NUMBER 1 FAN WONT BE ABLE TO MEET THEM AS I HAVE NO MONEY!!!AND MY MOM WONT ALLOW ME TO GO!!!HAISH

BTW PCD IS NO SPLITING!!!YAY!!!I KNEW IT!!!THEY ARE A FAMILY!!!FAMILY STAY BY EACH OTHER!!!I LOVE PCD!!!

2009-06-01T14:43:00.003+08:00

Okay!!!i am so very cranky suddenly!!!i dun noe why???i finally get to see something i fetish for a long time!!!bicep tattoo!!!i loike!!!hehe..tribal..it turns me on sia!!!i like!!hmm..thanks dear!!!

Okay i'm super irritated now and i dun even noe the reason...am i cheating on my love???because i think i am..is being with another person that i might have a slight feeling with consider cheating???hmm...i wonder!!!but truely i wont cheat on you...love u kay!!!:)

2009-06-01T11:32:00.002+08:00

Sunday...31/05/09

Went to Ms Lian Limin concert and i have to say that their music are good but classic music juct bores me...hahas...so i cant wait for their 34.2 concert as it will be a more hip and cool concert...hahas...after that went to Lau Pa Sat to eat...i ate mee kuah and it is so freaking spicy!!!i cannot tahan...but the satay was nice!!!hahas...After eating,we walk all the way to city hall and slack at marina square and while fakky and wanny bought cake for tashryn,i brought them to top shop...hahahs...and them surprise tashryn at the staircase...i was fun...tashryn fell at the escalator!!!!it was super stupid and she make this comment..."never run up a escalator that is going down..."in all i had a very good time with them...fakky,wanny,clement,jonathan,cong yao,tashryn and my dear joleen...hahas...love you people!!!

2009-06-01T11:20:00.002+08:00

Saturday...30/05/09

Hmm...i stayed at home all day to study for my TPS...this coming thursday is my ca!!!So i'm hoping to get good marks for it!!!i really did put in alot of effort for sch this term...and i hope the result is worth it...hahas...and yar i really miss nana,ahmad,shilla,fakky!!!hmm...this hols i'm so gonna meet then often...plus i have to study for my other module ca....hahahs

Well i have to say goin to the band on thursday was a good one...we had alot of motivation for the juniors!!!i think with this year juniors punishment doesnt work but motivation will drive them to achieve better success...hahas

2009-06-01T11:10:00.002+08:00

Friday..29/05/09

Finally EVM show some ray of hope for my group...

Me and Fathiah went to meet up with Mr Mohammad and we cleared our doubts...For once, our prizes are done,stage,venue and pa system are done now left with publication stuff and participant...hmm...i hope we will do good with this event and i can score well!!!yeah...

2009-05-28T11:51:00.002+08:00

Omg i was super malu ystd!!!!Firstly i stumble on my speech during the installation,i dun noe how it happen as i was really calm before i got up...the it just strike me!!!!Omg!!!paiseh and aunty jo,natnat and wawa was there...i fell like crying ystd!!!!hmmm...but well it is over no point crying over spilt milk...

CONGRATULATION TO MY FELLOW JUNIOR STUDENT COUNCIL!!!!

I hope with the badge that you wear,i tell you your responsibility and acceptance in student council!!!all i have to say is that you all have done amazing job and gone through alot.....

BEST WISHES FOR ALL OF YOU!!!

CONFESSION

I THINK I HAD FALLEN FOR SOMEONE!!!
BUT I HAVE YOU,AND I DO LOVE YOU..
HOPEFULLY ITS ONLY A INFATUATION!!!

2009-05-25T10:19:00.002+08:00

I AM UBER PISS OFF WITH LOVE!!!
I AM UBER PISS OFF WITH MY STUPID DIARRHOEA!!!!
I AM UBER PISS OFF WITH SCH(EVM TO BE EXACT)!!!

I had wonderful week end though i still have my stupid diarrhoea!!!Saturday my cousin got married!!!hmm i didnt go as i was having my stupid diarrhoea!!!And so i stayed at home and rot!!!family came home late and being alone at home,alot happen!!!like the door shut itself and my window was knocked!!!it was freaky lah but i was use to it actually!!!

And yar i miss my lappy!!!shilla borrowed it for her project!!!and i havent seen it for like 6 days!!!but wells...

*YOU DUN HAVE TO LIE!!!
I WILL NOT STOP YOU FROM ENJOYING WITH YOUR FRIENDS!!!
BUT WHY MUST U LIE???

2009-05-21T12:05:00.003+08:00

OKAY I AM PROUD TO SAY THAT MY IDOL THAT I'VE BEEN SUPPORTING SINCE HIS AUDITION KRIS ALLEN WON AMERICAN IDOL!!!!YEAH THOUGH I DIDNT SEE THE FINALE...I GOT THE NEW THROUGH FATHIAH...I WAS JUMPING WITH JOY IN CLASS!!!!KRIS WON!!!!I LOVE YOU KRIS...CAN'T WAIT FOR HIS ALBUM!!!!MY BEST IDOL EVER!!!

2009-05-21T11:51:00.003+08:00

OKAY I HAVE BEEV HAVING DIARRHOEA...LIKE FOR SO LONG!!!AND TODAY I HAVE MEET THE PARENT SESSION...I HATE IT...
I DUN THINK I CAN FUNCTION WELL WITH DIARRHOEA....ANYWAY MY PARENTS AND GRANDMA WENT TO JOHORE!!!!I TOLD THEM NOT TO COZ MALAYSIA GOT H1N1...BUT THEN THEY WANT TO TAKE THE BAJU!!!SO OKAY LAH......

OKAY YESTERDAY 20/05/09 I OFFICIALLY STEAD WIF OSCAR AT 2.25 AND BROKE UP WITH HIM THAT VERY SAME DAY!!!!HAHAS...LOLS...

AND DURING PLEDGE PRAC BOON PENG ASK ME FOR STEAD...HAHAHS...SO SEC SCH...
AND YAR ITS OFFICIAL TOO...20/05/09 AT 6.04PM I'M TOGETHER WITH BOON PENG...
LOLS....

THIS IS HOW BORED WE ARE!!!!LOLS...:)

BTW I MISS U!!!!LOVE IS BUSY SO AM I!!!!
I WANNA MEET UP SOON!!!

2009-05-18T21:41:00.002+08:00

SEE MY EDITED PHOTOS!!!!HAHAHAS..OKAY I NOE ITS NOT AS GOOD AS INDRA'S PHOTOS BUT I'M STILL LEARNING....HAHAS...SO PEOPLE PLS DUN CRITICISE MY PHOTOS....

2009-05-17T10:49:00.002+08:00

HEY!!!HERE BLOGGING AGAIN....SEE THE PICTURE ONTOP????YUPP WE ARE THE HOTSTUFF OF CLASS SL....YEAH!!!!I LOIKE!!!!ANYWAY WENT TO PINK DOT YSTD!!!!I LOIKE!!!!THERE ARE PLENTY OF HOT PEOPLE AND FUN STUFF TO DO...HAHA...AFTER THAT WENT HOME TO SLEEP FOR LIKE 1/2 AN HOUR THEN MUST GOT TO KENDURI ARWAH MY GREAT GRANDMA....ACTUALLY WANNA GOT TO FLYER TO SEE THE MOTORCROSS BUT THEN DECIDED THAT FAMILY IS MORE IMPT...HAHAHAS....

*I HAD FUN WITH YOU YSTD.....LOVE U!!!!

2009-05-15T22:48:00.003+08:00

OMG I FORGOT TO POST SOMETHING!!!!I BLEED AGAIN TODAY!!!IT WAS SUPER SHOCKING!!!!IT HAVE BEEN MONTHS SINCE I BLEED!!!!MONTHS!!!! I THINK YEARS...GOSH IT IS SO PAINFUL...CANNOT TAHAN SIA!!!!SERIOUSLY ARH...HAISH WATS HAPPENING TO ME???SERIOUSLY ITS WEIRD...OUT OF SUDDEN SIA...HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN...I CAME OUT OF THE TOILET WITH VERY PALE FACE!!!!HAISH...I DID NOT DO THAT THING AND HAVE NEVER EVER DONE IT!!!!HMMM!!!GOSH!!!!IT FREAKING PAINFUL LAH!!!!!LUCKILY IT DIDNT BLEED JUST NOW IN SCH OR MR PRATA!!!SHUD I CONSULT A DOCTOR???IS IT SOME ABNORMAL ILLNESS???HAISH!!!!I HAVE NEVER TELL THIS TO ANYONE EXCEPT NANA,AHMAD AND SHILLA...SIAL LAH!!!!

2009-05-15T21:12:00.002+08:00

HAHAS!!!HOW DO I LOOK AS A GEEK???I KINDA LIKE MY GEEK LOOK...SO CUTE!!!HAHAS...HEY PEOPLE DO COME DOWN TO HONG LIM PARK FOR THE PINKDOT CAMPAIGN....SUPPORT FREEDOM FOR LOVE!!!!:)

2009-05-15T20:43:00.003+08:00

TODAY EVM GIVES US SOME HOPE!!!HAHAS...BECAUSE WE MIGHT GET A SPONSOR!!!HOPEFULLY...WE HAD AN OA TEST,HAHAS AS ALWAYS WE SHARE ANSWER....LOLS...HAD PLEDGE PRAC ALSO TODAY!!!I HAVE TO SAY THEY IMPROVE...THERE ARE MORE ROOMS TO BE BETTER...AFTER PLEDGE PRAC,ME,IZZAT,FARAHL,IND AND DODA WENT TO MR PRATA TO EAT!!!SERIOUSLY ITS MY FIRST TIME THERE...HAHAHAS...IT WAS COOL LAH....WENT HOME WITH FARAHL AND IND....I WAS DISTURBING IND ALL THE WAY IN THE TRAIN....HAHAS...

HE WAS SO FREAK OUT AND DISGUSTED BY ME..HAHAS...

2009-05-14T20:21:00.001+08:00

OKAY!!!SCH IS OKAY TODAY!!!EVM SUX...WE STILL HAVENT GET ANY SPONSOR!!!LIKE WAT THE HELL...MY TEAM WAS CALLING UP ALL THE SPONSOR THAT WE SENT EMAIL TO BUT ALL WERE BUSY OR NOT IN OFFICE...SHIT SIAL!!!

RP HAVENT REPLY AND SPONSOR HAVENT GET!!!ALL WE HAVE ARE PERFORMANCE!!!SIAL LAH...TMR I GOT OA TEST SUMMORE..AND YAR I THINK I SPENT ALOT OF MONEY SIA!!!MUST SAVE MONEY AND YAR I'M GONNA FIND A JOB...NO I HAVE TO FIND JOB SOON I NEED MONEY AND THIS SAT I'M GOING TO THE PINKDOT CAMPAIGN AT HONG LIM PARK AT 4.30PM...ALL THE GAY PEOPLE IN SINGAPORE UNITE!!!!WE ARE UNIQUE!!!

AND TO ALL THE HOMOPHOBES F**k YOU!!!!I REALLY CURSE ALL OF YOU!!!MAY ALL YOUR DESCENDANTS ALL BE ONE OF ME!!!AND YOU WILL HAVE DISGRACE FOR ETERNITY!!!!I CURSE YOU TO BE RUN DOWN BY TRAILER AND ALL OF YOU DIE A HORRIBLE DEATH!!!ARH...RELIEF!!!:)

2009-05-14T19:53:00.002+08:00

2009-05-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hDdoT7o

OKAY YOU HAVE TO SEE THIS VID TO NOE HU I AM???AND THAT I AM NOT A FREAK COZ THERE ARE MANY MORE LIKE ME!!!WE DUN NEED DICRIMINATION BUT WE ONLY NEED YOUR SUPPORT!!!HMM...HOPE YOU GUYS UNDERSTAND!!!:)PEACE OUT SUFFY....

2009-05-13T22:57:00.000+08:00

OKAY I MISS SHILLA...IT HAS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I SEE HER...HMM...ANYWAY WE ARE STILL MSGING!!!SO HOPEFULLY SHE IS OKAY AND FINE!!!!

I MISS FARAH TOO...SHE HAVE BEEN SICK AND I MISS HER!!!WHEN SHE RECOVERS WE ARE GONNA EAT ICE-CREAM TOGETHER...YAY!!!!:)

LASTLY I MISS THIS MINAH KENTAL!!!HAHAS...LIKE TO THE FREAKING CORE!!!!STAY KENTAL OKAY MY DEAR BFFS!!!!HAHAHAS

2009-05-13T22:41:00.000+08:00

OKAY!!!YOU WANNA NOE WAT???I MISS BLOGGING ABOUT MY HOTSTUFF...CHOI SIWON!!!SEEMS LIKE SO MANY SINGAPOREAN ARE INTO KOREAN SONGS,BANDS,DRAMAS AND MOVIES...AND SO MY HOTSTUFF IS SO WELL WANTED!!!ITS OKAY HE IS STILL MINE!!!GET LOST PEOPLE!!!SIWON IS MINE!!!GO GET OTHER HOT KOREAN SINGER!!!!PISSED!!!HAHAS....

2009-05-13T21:00:00.000+08:00

WELL I HAD FUN!!!SCH WAS OKAY!!!HAD CAM WHORING SESSION WITH FATHIAH,INDRA,SHIKIN AND ZIA!!!HAHAS..I'LL LET THE PICTURES DO THE TALKING....

2009-05-11T10:20:00.000+08:00

HEY!!!I HAD A GREAT FUN DAY WITH UMAIRAH,ALAWIYAH AND SALLEH!!!WE WENT TO SENTOSA AND ITS ALL FOR FREE!!!I LIKE!!!WELL I CONCERNED MY FEAR OF HEIGHT YSTD!!!FIRSTLY IT WAS THE CABLE CAR!!!SUPER HIGH AND SUPER FUN,,,AND SALLEH CANNOT STOP DISTURBING..WE TOOK ALOT OF RIDES LIKE GIMAX,DESPERADO'S,LUGE,SKY RIDE!!!SEE..THIS OUTING IS FULL OF HIGH ELIMENT...HAHAS...

YAR WE MET HAZLAN AND AHMAD!!!AND WAT THE HELL AHMAD!ASK ME FOR GIG!!!AIYO...THEN TOOK CABLE CAR BACK TO HABOURFRONT!!!AND WENT TO EAT AT LJS...THERE WE TALK ABD EVM AND STUFF!!!HAHAS...THEN OFF WE GO TO SINGAPORE FLYER!!!!SERIOUSLY I HAD FUN AND IT MAKES ME FORGET ALL PROBLEMS AND MY FEELING!!!:)

THANKS UMAIRAH!!!AND YA NEXT IS BIRD PARK,ZOO AND NIGHT SAFARI...YAY!!!

2009-05-09T16:42:00.000+08:00

OKAY TODAY WAS A SOBER DAY FOR ME AGAIN...MY LOVE ONE HAVE GONE TO MEET THE ALMIGHTY!!!!GOOD BYE NYANG(GREAT GRANDMA)MAY ALL YOUR SUFFERING END!!!

I GOT TO KNOW THE NEWS AROUND 2++ EARLY IN THE MORNING!!!!I WOKE UP DUE TO NATURE CALL AND THERE MY FATHER SITTING ON HIS BED WITH TEARY EYES!!!HE KEPT SILENCE UNTIL THE MOMENT I WAS ABOUT TO ENTER THE TOILET HE TOLD ME THAT NYANG IS GONE!!!I HAVE NO REACTION!!!AFTER I URINE,I WENT BACK TO MY ROOM AND I COULDN'T SLEEP!!!!SO I ENDED UP WATCHING TV TILL I DOZE OFF...

IN MY MIND WAS LIKE FULL OF MIX FEELING!!!I AM SO CALLED HAPPY THAT SHE HAVE MOVE ON AND THE SUFFERING SHE HAD HAVE ALSO ENDED!!!BUT I WAS ALSO SAD THAT I HAVE LOST TWO LOVE ONE IN A YEAR WHICH IS MY GRANDFATHER AND MY GREAT GRANDMA!!!HERE I WISH TO PRAY FOR THEM...MAY THEIR SOULS BE BLESS AND MAY THEY REST IN PEACE WITH ALL THE GOOD PEOPLE!!!

AGAIN....THIS YEAR HARI RAYA WILL BE A SOBER ONE...WITHOUT THEIR PRESENTS,IT WILL BE SO DIFFERENT FROM THE REST OF THE YEARS...THOUGH I KNOW IT WILL BE DIFFERENT AND ALSO IT WILL BE VERY SAD!!!I STILL KNOW THEY WILL BE THERE WITH US!!!IN OUR HEART!!!

AND SO!!!!I HOPE YOU ARE WHERE YOU BELONG AND YOU WILL HAVE A VERY PLEASANT AND WONDERFUL AFTER LIFE...FROM THE DEEPEST OF MY HEART I LOVE YOU TWO

2009-05-05T22:04:00.000+08:00

OKAY!!!SCH WAS REALLY FUN TODAY!!!ME AND FATHIAH WAS HIGH ON GREEN SHOTS!!!!HAHAS...IT WAS DAMN FUNNY AND YUPP MS HANI LEAVING US ON THE 15!!!SHIT SIA!!!!AND HAD S&W WE PLAYED CAPTAIN BALL!!!!IT WAS REALLY FUN...AARON,TERRENCE,BOBBY AND DANIEL MAKE A GOOD CAPTAIN BALL PLAYER!!!I LOVE S&W AND BTW OUR S&W TEACHER WAS SUPER FUN!!!THE BEST S&W TEACHER EVER!!!!RITE INDRA????

OKAY NEXT!!!MY DAD GOT A MSG FROM MY AUNTY SAYING THAT MY GREAT GRANDMA IS REALLY ILL!!!SHE CANT TALK AND WALK ANIMORE!!!I NOE THIS DAY WILL COME VERY SOON!!!ITS CANCER!!!BUT I'M NOT SURE THAT I'M READY FOR ANOTHER LOST!!!IT WILL REALLY BREAK ME DOWN!!!!OH GOSH!!!OH OKAY!!!LETS DROP THE SUBJECT!!!

2009-05-04T20:46:00.000+08:00

OH MY FREAKING GOD!!!WE HAVE YET TO GET AN EVENT!!!!I FEEL SO STRESS ABOUT EVM!!!!NO SPONSERSHIP,NO EVENT,NOT EVEN A THING!!!!I AM LIKE SO FREAKING SCARED LAH...HOW DO I GET SPONSER????ANY FUNDING???SHIT!!!!ARH!!!

OKAY BTW TODAY WAS A VERY FUN DAY IN SCH!!!AND YAR MY HEAD/BRAIN CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT THE EVENT!!!!HMM...SO I GOT NO MOOD TO POST A REAL AND COMPLETE POST!!!HAHA...

2009-05-04T11:35:00.000+08:00

Homosexuality refers to attraction or sexual behavior between people of the same sex, or to a sexual orientation. As an orientation, homosexuality refers to "an enduring pattern of or disposition to experience sexual, affectional, or romantic attractions primarily to" people of the same sex; "it also refers to an individual’s sense of personal and social identity based on those attractions, behaviors expressing them, and membership in a community of others who share them....

SO POEPLE WHAT IS YOUR TAKE ON HOMOSEXUAL????HAHAS

2009-05-03T20:26:00.000+08:00

HAHAS...WELL THIS IS MY CLUBBIING PICTURES!!!!THIS IS ALL I HAVE!!!IT WAS LAST LAST FRIDAY!!!!

2009-05-03T17:39:00.000+08:00

CONFESSION OF THE WATER BARREL!!!

SEE I HAVE THIS ADDICTION!!!SERIOUSLY!!!I DRINK ALOT!!!AS IN ALL KINDS OF DRINKS!!!I JUST CANT STOP DRINKING!!!ON A NORMAL DAY,I CAN DRINK AROUND 8-10 OF 1.5 LITRES OF BOTTLES.SERIOUSLY!!!HMM..THEN THIS IS WHERE THE PROBLEMS COME!!!SEE WHEN I GO OUT,I TEND TO SPEND MOST OF MY PRECIOUS MONEY ON DRINKS...AND NORMALLY I WOULD BUT THOSE ON SALE OR PROMOTION!!!BUT STILL IS USES UP ALOT OF MY MONEY!!!!HOW DO I STOP THIS???HMM...I MYSELF DUN NOE!!!AND NOW I'M STILL SO THIRSTY!!!

*P.S JUST BEING RANDOM..

2009-05-03T13:14:00.000+08:00

THIS IS THE RESULT OF ME TAKING PICTURE WHILE FAKKY PULL MY HAIR!!!THIS HAPPEN IN THE TRAIN!!!THAT STUPID FAKKY!!!BUT STILL THE PICTURE IS SO COOL!!!I LIKE!!!HAHAHAS...GREAT OUTING WITH NANA,AHMAD,FAKKY AND MIRA!!!HAHAS...AS ALWAYS WE ARE SO KECOH!!!RUNNING ARD,SLAPPING ARD AND ALOT OF STUFF!!!AND THANKS TO INDAH I THINK!!!IS THAT HER NAME???HAHAHS FOR THE FREE DRINKS!!!!

STILL IN THE TRAIN...CAM-WHORING!!!!IT WAS FUN AND COOL....I LOIKE!!!

I TOOK THIS PICTURE OF THIS BOY WHOM MOM LEFT HIM SITTING OUTSIDE THIS STORE ALONE WHILE SHE WENT SHOPPING!!!!WAT THE FREAK!!!SEE HOW PARENTS TREAT THEIR CHILD NOWADAYS???HAISH ITS SO SAD AND THE CHILD IS SUPER DAMN BORED LAH...PITY THE POOR BOY!!!!

HAHAS!!!THIS PIC WAS TAKEN LAST WEEK I THINK!!!4 OF US TOGETHER!!!ME,NANA,SHILLA AND AHMAD!!!HAHAHS...I MISS THE SO MUCH EVENTHOUGH WE JUST WENT OUT YSTD!!!!BUT STILL...SHILLA WASNT THERE!!!WELLS!!!HAHAHAS

2009-04-30T20:04:00.000+08:00

FATHIAH BIRTHMARK LOOK LIKE HEART SHAPE...

SMILING USING THE EYE???I DOUBT SO!!!

JUST A PIC OF RANDOM ME!!!

TUESDAY(28/4/09)

WENT TO SCH...AGAIN!!!HAHAS...LATELY I FEEL SO TIRED AND SO I ALWAYS WOKE UP LATE BUT STILL BE IN SCH EARLY COZ NORMALLY I WOULD GO SCH BY BUS BUT NOWADAYS I TOOK THE TRAIN AND ITS SUPER FAST!!!SCH WAS FUN!!!HAD S&W...PLAYED THE BADMINTON WITH FATHIAH AND IND,JABBA,IZA,NAF AND ALSO THE TEACHER....AND YAR THERE IS THIS S&W TEACHER MR HALIM...HE IS SUPER CUTE!!!!HAHASBUT NOT MY TEACHER THOUGH...HAHAHS...AFTER SCH WENT TO LJS WITH FARAHLIYANA,IZZAT AND IND...HMMM....I HATE SCH BUT I LOVE SCH!!!!HAHAHAS...WELL SCH IS A LOVE HATE RELATIONSHIP!!!HAHA

WEDNESDAY(29/4/09)

AGAIN SCH...HAD FUN...BUT COULDNT ATTEND PLEDGE PRAC GOT SOMETHING ON...HAHAS...AND YAR....

2009-04-30T19:43:00.000+08:00

MONDAY(27/4/09)

SCH WAS AS PER NORMAL...SECOND YEAR IS LIKE SLACK IN CLASS BUT ALOT OF PROJECTS!!!!STRESS!!!!AND YAR PICTURES OF ACT OF BOREDOM IN CLASS....CUTE ARENT I????HAHAHAS!!!!OKAY I SORT OF FORGET WAT HAPPEN AFTER SCH...HAHAHS....I NOE WENT HOME AND YAR I REALLY FORGET!!!HAHAS

2009-04-30T19:35:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY(26/04/09)

WE ACTUALLY WENT FOR MOVIE!!!!17 AGAIN!!!AND BOI ZAC EFRON IS SO FREAKING HOT!!!!HIS SUPER NICE BODY AND SUPER CUTE FACE!!!ITS CLOSE TO PERFECTION!!!BUTT 1 THING SPOIL!!!!HIS ARMPIT HAIR!!!!ZAC!!!ITS NOT SEXY!!!!SHAVE IT OF!!!HAHAHAS....

MY PICTURE WITH HARRY POTTER POSTER!!!!CANT WAIT FOR THE MOVIE!!!!

PICTURE OF BRANDON PEEING!!!!SO CUTE LAUGHING!!!

ME WHILE PEEING AND TAKING PICTURE!!!!SEE I CAN MULTITASK!!!!HAHAHAS

2009-04-30T19:28:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY(26/04/09)

2009-04-30T19:18:00.000+08:00

ONE OF THE DESIGN OF THE SHIRTS....NICE!!!SO COLOURFUL

SATURDAY(25/4/09)

HAD A VERY BORING DAY AT HOME IN THE MORNING AND SO I ASK FAKKY AND WANNY OUT!!!!HAHAS DID NOTHING MUCH...ME AND WANNY ATE AT HABOURFRONT PIZZA HUT AND THE SERVICE IS SO FREAKING BAD!!!BUT WELLS,TO DAMN HUNGRY AND SO WE WAITED AND YAR!!!!I DID SOME SHOPPING AT BUGIS AND BOUGHT 4 SHIRTS!!!COOL....

2009-04-25T13:01:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY SCHOOL WAS FUN!!!HAHAS...NOTHING MUCH WE DO EXCEPT FOR EVM AND OA...SHIT NEED TO REGROUP SIA!!!HOW EH???ANYWAY EXCO MEEETING WAS A FRUITFUL ONE I MUST SAY!!!IZZAT GAVE US BUBBLE GUM AND PEANUT BUTTER CHOCOLATE THINGY AND IT TASTE GOOD!!!!AFTER EXCO MEETING ME,FARAH,EPUL,IZZAT AND IND WENT TO PONDOK ABG TO EAT!!!!IT HAVE BEEN SO LONG SINCE WE DID THAT!!!HAHAS THEN SLACK AT MAC TILL AROUND 6++...

OKAY TO THE BUS AND THERE WERE A TRAFFIC JAM...SIALAN...REACH HOME AT 8.30 BATHE,GET READY AND OFF TO HOBOURFRONT!!!MET ESAH AND MR SUNSHINE AND FRIEND...LOLS....THEN WAIT FOR AK,RUPS,JENA AND AYU...WENT CLUBBING AND YUPP IT WAS NICE!!!FULL OF HOT WHITE GUYS....SO FREAKING HOT!!!...HAHAS DID FUNNY VIDS AND ALSO RUNWAY!!!IT WAS COOL...I LOIKE!!!!

TOOK CAB HOME ITS A FREAKING $18...BUT WELL GET HOME FAST AND IN COMFORT!!!BATHE,WASH MY GLAMOROUS FACE AND STRAIGHT TO SLEEP!!!

2009-04-22T16:47:00.001+08:00

HAHAS!!!IZZAT IS BACK TODAY!!!!I LOIKE!!!!ONE WEEK OF NOT SEEING HIM!!!AND YAR TODAY LESSON WAS FUN!!!MY GROUP WON THE PRESENTATION!!!

AND YAR THAT STUPID IDIOT WENT BERSERK AGAIN AFTER I SHOUT JUST DO LAH!!!!LIKE WATEVER SIAL!!!COME STOP TRYING TO FLIRT WITH THE TEACHER OKAY!!!WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE AND ASKING THAT FAGGOT FRIEND OF YOURS TO ASK ME TO CHANGE!!!WAQT THE FUCK LAH SIAL!!!!IF YOU HAVE PROBLEMS WITH YOUR FREAKING SELF THEN CHANGE YOUR WAYS AND DONT ASK OTHERS TO CHANGE BECAUSE I WONT CHANGE MY WAYS JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE A VERY SAD CHILDHOOD!!!BITCH!!!WHORE!!!BASTARD!!!FREAK!!!THANK GOD I COULDN'T BE BOTHERED WITH YOUR STUPID LACK OF SELF-ESTEEM!!!OR NOT MY DAY WILL BE SPOILT!!!HAHAS!!!

OKAY!!!I CAN BELIEVE I'M BLOGGING IN THE SELF ACCESS ROOM!!!HAHAHS!!!!TILL THE TIME IS RUNNING OUT!!!!HAHAS!!!!WILL BLOG AGAIN AT HOME!!!

2009-04-21T22:02:00.000+08:00

OKAY I DON'T NOE WHY THIS PIC CANT BE ROTATE!!!!IRRITATING!!!!

WELL TO SCH WAS FUN!!!HAD TPS MISS HANI!!!!CAME OUT WITH JINGLE AND HAD FUN DOING IT WITH MY GROUP!!!HAHAS...AND YES WE FINISH IT!!!!YAY!!HAD OA TO AND YES ITS SO SLACK!!!LIKE SERIOUSLY!!!!DURING LUNCH SAT WITH SHIKIN,IND AND FATHIAH!!!!ME AND IND WAS SUPER DISGUSTING TODAY!!!!HAHAS!!!I MISS HIM!!!THAT IDIOT!!!AND YAR HAD SW!!!AND IT SUCK TO ROUNDS ARD SCH,SOME STRETCHING...AND I DO IT WILLINGLY COZ THE RELIEF TEACHER WAS UBER CUTE!!!!MR HALIM SO YOUNG AND SO HOT!!!!HAHAHAS...OKAY STOP IT...SO AFTER THAT WENT TO SC ROOM AND ME AND SUE DID SOMETHING FOR THE EXCOS!!!HAHAS!!!AFTER THAT WENT HOME TO WATCH OKTO LIVE!!!HAHAHAS!!!IT IS BECAUSE VOGUELICIOUS WAS PERFORMING!!!!SO HOT!!!I LOIKE!!!!AND SO HERE I AM BLOGGING AGAIN!!!HAHAHAS!!!

CONFESSION!!!

I REALLY HATES IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY I A GOOD BOY AND I DONT DO THIS AND I DONT DO THAT!!!!BUT THE FACT IS I AM WAY VERY WILD FOR PEOPLE TO HANDLE!!!!I GO CLUBBING,I DRINK,I SMOKE,I HAVE DONE VERY BAD STUFF THAT I SHOULD NOT MENTION...SO PEOPLE DONT REGARD ME AS A GOOD BOY COZ I AM NOT!!!YEAH!!!ARH!!!

MOTIVATION!!!

SUFFY HAVE TO STUDY HARD TO GET BETTER GPA FOR THIS TERM IN ORDER TO GET INTO POLY!!!OKAY!!!STRIVE HARD AND WORK SMART AND GIVE UR HEART AND SOUL TO STUDY OKAY!!!!YOU CAN DO IT!!!:)

2009-04-20T20:16:00.000+08:00

IT WAS CCA FAIR DAY TODAY AND HAD TO REACH SCH AT 8!!!AND I'M THE SECOND TO ARRIVE!!!YAY!!!ATIKAY WAS THE FIRST!!!HAHAS...IN ALL TODAY WAS A FUN DAY!!!THE MALAY DANCE PERFORMANCE IS SO COOL!!!ZAPIN HIP HOP!!!!COOL OR WAT!!!!ANYWAY DISTURD SAIFUL AGAIN AND HE WAS SUPER FUNNY AND FARAHL KEEP ON TAKING HIS MELATAH PICTURES!!!COOL AND PLUS WE MAKE HIM DANCE AND DO ALL THE STUPID STUFF!!!HAHAS

HMM...AFTER CCA FAIR,WE REST AT THE SC ROOM AND ORDERED MAC!!!!BUT IT WAS SHORT OF 1 MCSPICY SO I GAVE MINE TO DODA!!!HAHAS SWEET KAN!!!HAHAHAS...WE HAD FUN IN THE SC ROOM...AND HELL BRANDON LOVES TO DANCE!!!HAVE TO SAY THAT HE LOOK HOT WHEN HE DANCE!!!HAHAS!!!KEEP UP THE GD JOB THERE BRANDON!!!!WENT HOME WITH IND,FARAHL AND BRANDON!!!WENT TO HP INSTEAD OF CP TO TRIM MY HAIR AND IT SUCKS!!!!LIKE SERIOUSLY!!!VERY UGLY SEH MY HAIR!!!!IDIOTIC HAIRDRESSER!!!BUT WELL WATS DONE CANNOT BE UNDONE!!!HAVE TO LIVE WITH IT TILL MY HAIR GROWS BACK!!!!HAHAS

WENT HOME TOOK A BATH WHILE MY DAD FRY EGG!!!HIS SPECIALTY...EGG WITH SOYA SAUCE,ONIONS AND CHILLE NICE BUT HE ADDED CHICKEN TODAY!!!SUPER NICE!!!!HAHAS...AND YAR TODAY I TOOK PICTURE WITH MAT MOHOCK BUT THE PIC NOT WITH ME YET SO WILL UPDATE SOON AND ALSO ALL THE PICTURES FOR CCA FAIR!!!!YAY!!!!CCA FAIR WENT SMOOTHLY!!!!I LOIKE!!!!HAHAHS...ANYWAY!!!I MISS IZZAT WHO IS IN TAXES!!!COOL OR WAT???HE WILL BE BACK ON WEDNESDAY!!!!HAHAS...AND YAR PAPAHOUSE IS BACK!!!!INDRA IS BACK!!!!YAY!!!YOU NOE WAT???I MISS THE JAN INTAKE!!!!BUT IDK WHY!!!!HAHAHAS

LIST OF MISSED PEOPLE:

SITI NOORHASANAH,
RUSHILLA,
AHMAD SYAZARUAN(BOTAK),
MUMMY AZURA,
ALL THE SC SENIORS,
ABG LONG(IZZAT MENDES),
FIKRI KITTIKHUN,
ADAM KAVERI,
YAZID,
PREDIP,
5A2 07(A2 SIAO),
PINKIZIE(ZIRAH),
AND THE LIST GOES ON,
AND ON,
AND ON....LOLS

I WANT A SC OUTING!!!!MAYBE I SHOULD PLAN AND THEN CAN INVITE MUMMY,DADDY AND ALL THE OTHER SENIORS!!!!HAHAHA...THAT WILL BE GREAT!!!:)

SUFFY LOVES LOLLIPOPS!!!!
SUFFY LOVES SUFFYSELF!!!
SUFFY IS IN LOVE!!!!HAHA!!!

2009-04-19T21:36:00.000+08:00

18/04/09(SATURDAY)

WENT OUT WITH FAKKY,WANNY AND JAH TO QWEENSWAY SHOPPING CENTRE...HAHAS...THEN HEAD TO IMM TO GO FACE SHOP!!!!WHILE FAKKY AND JAH WAS IN FACESHOP,ME AND WANNY WALK AROUND IMM...HAHAS....THEN ME,FAKKY AND WANNY WENT TO CITY HALL TO LEPAK!!!!FUN,COOL AND SUPERB....LALALA!!!THEN WE PLAN NOT TO GO HM SO WE MAKE OUR WAY TO ECP!!!!IN THE TRAIN THERE WAS THIS HOT MALAY GUY LIKE SUPER HOT MAT REP!!!NONONO!!!MAT HMMM!!!I LOIKE!!!!LOLS AND WE MISS THE PAYA LEBAR STOP!!!!HAHAS!!!BUT LUCKY THERE IS EUNOS STATION...AND YUPP!!!FAKKY SANDAL PUTUS!!!HAHAS!!!AND WE TOOK 55 TO ECP!!!!LEPAK,CHILL EAT AT MAC!!!WANTED TO SEE SUNRISE BUT IT RAIN!!!SO WENT HOME EARLY!!!AT ARD 6AM...I HAD FUN!!!!!AND SUFFY IS SO NAUGHTY!!!!HAHAHAS

19/04/09(SUNDAY)

SLEPT LIKE A PIG!!!!WAKE UP AND EAT THEN SLEEP BACK!!!!!HAHAS!!!!SUPER SLEEPY LAH SEH!!!:)HAHAS

2009-04-17T23:50:00.000+08:00

OKAY!!!I AM LIKE UBER BROKE!!!!
I SO TOTALLY NEED A JOB SEH!!!!
AHMAD SAYS WANNA BRING ME TO SENTOSA BUT TILL NOW I HAVE NOT BEEN THERE!!!!!IRRITATING SEH!!!!
I'M LEFT WITH $22 IN BANK AND $6 IN HAND!!!!I SUPER NEED MONEY!!!
ANYONE WITH JOB PLS CONTACT ME AT MY EMAIL!!!!
sufi_charms_ian@hotmail.com...thanks!!!!

2009-04-17T23:34:00.000+08:00

WHY DO PEOPLE LOOK AT ME LIKE I'M SOME KIND OF FREAK???

JUST BECAUSE I AM NOT AS TOUGH AS A MAN!!!

JUST BECAUSE I PREFERS TO BE SOFT!!!!

JUST BECAUSE I LOVE COLOURS!!!!

JUST BECAUSE I AM FREAKING FAT!!!!

JUST BECAUSE I LOVE TO DANCE LIKE GURLS!!!!

JUST BECAUSE I LOOK AT GUYS MORE THAN GURLS!!!!

JUST BECAUSE I AM DIFFERENT FROM NORMAL GUYS!!!!

JUST BECAUSE I AM HAVE DIFFERENT PREFERENCES!!!!

STOP LOOKING AT ME CAN????LOOK AT YOUR FREAKING SELF!!!!!

YOU ARE NO BETTER THEN ME!!!!YOU PEOPLE ARE JUST A WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT WHOM THINK SO HIGHLY OF YOURSELF AND LOOK DOWN ON PEOPLE!!!!GUESS WAT????GO AND DIE!!!!BECAUSE I DUN CARE ABOUT WAT YOU THINK OF ME!!!!BECAUSE I AM WHO I AM AND NO ONE CAN CHANGE THAT!!!!SO SCRAM OFF!!!!

2009-04-17T23:22:00.000+08:00

I HATE THIS FEELING!!!!
IT IS LIKE EVERYTHING I DO IS NOT RIGHT!!!!
IT IS SUPER IRRITATING CAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHY!!!!
SERIOUSLY I FEEL LONELY MOST OF THE TIME!!!!
I FEEL LEFT OUT MOST OF THE TIME!!!!
I FEEL UNWANTED ALL THE TIME!!!!
I FEEL LOOK DOWN EVERY SECOND!!!!
I FEEL USELESS EVERYTIME!!!!
I FEEL INSULTED EVERY TIME I SPEAK!!!!
I FEEL UNAPPRECIATED EVERYTIME!!!

WHAT IS THIS FEELING I HAVE???

2009-04-17T21:00:00.000+08:00

APRIL INTAKE ORIENTATION!!!

13/04/09(MONDAY)

AS ALWAYS WOKE UP EARLY IN THE MORNING...TO REACH SCH AT 6.30...AND THANK GOD MY DAD SEND ME!!!CAN WAKE UP 1/2 AN HR LATE...HAHAS..ORIENTATION WENT WELL AND GOOD!!!AFTER ORIENTATION ME,DERRICK,MAS,UMAIRAH AND SAIFUL WENT TO TOWN TO BUY JACKET FOR IZZAT!!!WE SEARCH HIGH AND LOW AND FINALLY A NICE ONE AT ZARA!!!WENT TO IZZAT ESTATE TO GIVE A SURPRISE!!!AND HE LOVES IT!!!I FEEL SO GD AND RELIEF!!!HAHAS!!!CHATTED AND THEN BIT FAREWELL TO HIM GET A HUG FROM HIM!!!HAHAS!!!IZZAT!!!MISS HIM LAH!!!

14/04/09(TUESDAY)

WOKE UP EARLY AGAIN....AND YAR THE APRIL INTAKE IS REALLY SO ENTHU FOR THE CHEERS AND T-SHIRT DESIGN...AND CLASS USHERER DID A GD JOB!!!!THAT IS ALL I CAN SAY!!!:)

15/04/09(WEDNESDAY)

TEAM BONDING DAY AND SABO DAY!!!!IDIOTS!!!I GOT STOMACH ACHE!!!BUT I STILL BE SUPPORTING AND GO UP THE STAGE TO DO THE I FEEL SO GOOD CHEER,FREESTYLE DANCE AND ALSO NOBODY DANCE!!!HAD FUN AND ENJOY MY TIME ON STAGE!!!!HAHAHAS!!!!IN ALL THE THREE DAYS WENT WELL!!!!I LOIKE!!!BONDED WITH JUNIOR LIKE INDRA,FARHAN,AMMIRUL,HAWA,HIDAYAH,IN SIMPLE ALL!!!HAHAS

OKAY THIS INTAKE ALOT OF HOT GUYS!!!!WHICH SUFFY LOIKE!!!HAHAS!!!GURLS ALL OKAYLAH...BUT STILL HAVE FUN THIS ORIENTATION!!!!AND I MISS ALOT OF CLASSES AND IT FELL WEIRD WITH THE CHANGES IN THE GROUPS BUT WELLS!!!THAT'S ALL FROM SUFFY!!!

P.S SUFFY IS IN PAIN!!!

2009-04-12T16:22:00.000+08:00

IS THERE REALLY SUCH THING AS BESTFRIEND FOREVER????OR BESTFRIENDS FOREVER???

I REALLY WONDER!!!FROM MANY PEOPLE I ASK,THEY SAY ITS NOT TRUE!!!AND SO IT BRINGS DOUBT TO ME!!!I MEAN TO ME ITS ALSO A NO,IT IS BECAUSE PEOPLE CHANGE,NO MATTER HOW LONG OR MUCH YOU KNOW THEM,THEY WILL STILL CHANGE!!!SERIOUSLY...THEY CHANGE WHEN YOU SEPARATE!!!LIKE FOR INSTANCE DIFFERENT SCH,OR MAYBE IN THE SAME SCH BUT DIFFERENT COURSE!!!!MAYBE ITS BECAUSE THEY HAVE FOUND A NEW CLIQUE WHICH IS WAY BETTER THAN YOU!!!OR EVEN WHEN THEY HAVE THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE!!!!THEY TEND TO NOT BOTHER ABOUT YOU!!!EVEN IF YOUR ONLINE,OR EVEN IF YOU SEE THEM FACE TO FACE!!!!WELL IN THIS YOU LIVE ALONE,FRIENDS ARE NEEDED BUT YOU STILL HAVE TO MOVE FORWARD AND MOVE ON ALONE!!!

WELL GOING OUT SEEMS SO FUN BACK THEN,BUT NOW!!!HMM THEY HAVE THEIR ON AGENDA WITH THEM FOLLOWING AROUND!!!AND IT USE TO BE DIFFERENT TOPIC EVERY TIME BUT NOW!!!ITS THE SAME OLD TOPIC!!!!SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO TAKE YOUR OWN INITIATIVE TO ASK THEM OUT,BUT IT WILL BE EITHER NO MONEY,I'M GOING OUT WITH SOMEONE,OR I'M ALREADY OUT ALONE!!!!

SOMETIMES IT GET SO FRUSTRATING THAT YOU RATHER GO OUT WITH PEOPLE THAT YOU CAN ENJOY YOURSELF WITH RATHER THEN THEM!!!AT TIMES YOU REALLY MISS THEM,BUT YOU WILL THINK BACK WHETHER THEY ARE MISSING YOU BACK!!!!HIASH!!!

OKAY THIS POST IS JUST FOR FUN,NO INTENTION OF OFFENDING OTHERS!!!!

2009-04-11T22:27:00.000+08:00

NADIA!!!HAHAS

MY NEW MP3

TODAY WAS A FUN DAY!!!HAD TO HELP MY MOM COOK!!!HAHAS THE WENT TO MEET FAKKY AND WANNY TO CYCLE AT ECP!!!!NADD,JOLEEN,TASH AND MICHELLE WAS THERE TOO...BUT NADD,JOLEEN AND TASH ROLLER BLADE!!!:)TASH FELL,WE CUCLE IN THE RAIN,GO WAY FAR LIKE TO A REMOTE PLACE!!!LIKE SERIOUSLY!!!!

HAHAS...ASK THE SKATESHOP GUY FOR PHONE TO CALL TASH AS WE WERE SEPERATED....FAKKY SAYS THAT THE SKATESHOP GUY IS HOT!!!HAHAS!!!BLABLABLA!!!THEN WENT TO PP TO EAT!!!HAHA!!!!

OMG I SAW LYA!!!!ITS LIKE SO COOL!!!!I MISS HER!!!!LIKE UBER MISS HER LAH!!!!WE HUGGED!!!LOLS....IMAGINE...I JUST MSG HER ON THURS AND TODAY WE MET!!!HAHA..IN THE BUS ME AND NADD WAS LIKE DANCING TO KOREAN SONG AND SHE IS SUPER INTO AND MEMORIZE THE DANCE STEP SEH!!!!HAHAS..DIDNT TAKE PICTURE EXCEPT NADD FACE IN BUNNY SUIT...HAHAS...

AND YAR SUFFY BOUGHT A NEW MP3!!!!HAPPY!!!!SAMSUNG PURPLE COLOUR!!!!:)I LOIKE!!!!HAHAS

2009-04-10T23:10:00.000+08:00

RANDOM ALERT!!!

DOES A RELATIONSHIP MEANS THAT YOUR FREEDOM IS TAKEN AWAY FROM YOU???

IT IS TRUE IF YOU GET A VERY POSSESSIVE PARTNER WHOM WANTS TO KNOW EVERYTHING YOU DO!!!LIKE EVERY SINGLE THING YOU DO IN A DAY..EXAMPLE..YOU HAVE TO REPORT STRENGTH(AS IN TELL HIM/HER WHERE YOU AT!!!AND WHO ARE YOU GOING OUT WITH)HAHAS...LIKE SERIOUSLY LAH

2009-04-10T22:14:00.000+08:00

NOBODY-WONDER GIRLS!!!!

DEEPLY LOVED!!!WELL HAVE BEEN WANTING TO POST THIS BUT HAD NO TIME SO HERE IT IS!!!!

2009-04-10T22:05:00.000+08:00

MY LATE GRANDFATHER!!!

WELL TODAY MARKS THE 40 DAYS OF MY LATE GRANDFATHER DEATH!!!SO WE HAVE A PRAYING SESSION AT MY AUNTY HOUSE!!!THOUGH HE IS GONE THIS LONG,I STILL THE THE LOST!!!HMMM!!!AND THOUGH I'M NOT CLOSE TO HIM...I REALLY MISS HIM...BUT EVERYONE IN THIS WORLD WOULD HAVE TO GO!!!OKAYLAH I'LL STOP HERE!!!

2009-04-10T00:46:00.000+08:00

PICTURE OF THE DAY!!!!!

SUFFY THE BUNNY BOY!!!HAHAS

2009-04-10T00:43:00.000+08:00

I LOOK BALD!!!HAHAS

FAKKY THE ASTRONAUT

SUFFY LOVES THE WALL!!!!

WANNY VOGUE FACE!!!HAHAS

FAKKY AND WANNY COVER GUY AND GURL!!!NOT!!!

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WANNY THE SLAMBER!!!

FAKKY SO SEXY!!!NOT

SUFFY SUPER SLEEPY!!!HAHAS

FAKKY SMART MAMAT!!!