So i just did a dopest thing just now!! my sister and i were totally bored and we decided on what to wear for rayer and this idea of me using the normal top and a legging for rayer appear and so i try it on and omg i look superb in it..it gives me a tot of really using it for rayer!!!but well since my family dont noe tht i'm gay!!!i guess i will have to pass on it..hmm
Its hard living a double life coz i have to be a great pretender to actually live my current life..See my family are those conservative family..they dun allow other gender fren in the room unless they noe them already,they dun allow clubbing,dun allow so many different kinda shit!!!like they dun fancy me dancing the way i usually do..those feminine moves!!!but the truth is i'm gay!!!Outside,i dun really care wat people think of me!!!i lead my life alone...i couldnt be bothered by all the negative comment!!!thank god i have plenty of frenz who understand me and accept me!!!they noe who they are...its not like i did not try to be straight but i just cant!!!why do i have to pretend o like girls i i really dun have any feeling for them???
though i'm gay i have never even bee able to show people who i am...i really envy the voguelicious coz they dare to show people who they are...like wear all the pretty clothes,shoes,make up...they are such a doll!!!i really wish to go out and wear those legging!!!hot pants!!!beautiful shoes!!!nut i'm just not that daring to use and beside that i'll get whack by my parents!!!GOSH its so hard being me!!!